Honoring
The body stops
Hurts aches
Wants to fall apart
Slipping into the
lavender water
Warm enveloping comfort
Getting to the secret
places
Of loving and grit
Here in the quiet
Letting the body float
Baptized by lavender
I hold me
I hug my arms
I explore every toe
Watch my long hair
Float as seaweed
In the currents of my
body
I kiss my breasts
Run my hand down my
strong legs
Caress my cancer scared
belly
Pushing warm water waves
Over this roundness of
life
In holding to let go
Wailing for all I hold
in my soul
Salt tears mingle with
glitter lit water
For the sorrow and hope
That is now a turbulent
pool
In my soul
Here I find honor
Here I find honor for my
story
For the fears of death
I face with all the
courage I had
For the anxiety of
working this alone
Here I find honor for
things lost
Friendships that are no
more
A way of life that died
So I could find a new
way and an old way
Back to loving me
Here I find honor for
those who helped
In small and big ways
For the hands held,
shoulders cried on
For seeing the rebirth
in the kindest words
For just being there
Here I find honor for
myself
Honoring the entire
experience
For learning more to
love
For the courage to face
my fears
For the gratitude of
being alive
For being able to hold
all these things
Sorrow, anger,
gratitude, hope, love, joy, fear
Here I find honor for
myself
For being able to hold
all these things
