Sharp sunlight city defined

I know it has been a while since I wrote anything, but with Samhain, I will be writing more

Sharp sunlight city defined


It was not electric light
That shocked my senses
Rather clear sunlight
Sharpened by departing
Charcoal Clouds
Capping the sun as a cotton down blanket
Of a rain storm that cleared the air
Making it crisp
With no shadow’s ray
Bathing the eye’s awareness
To lines urban beauty
Bright between tall steel and lighted glass
And in the early setting sun
Cast clear watery glow toward the ocean
Absent of setting suns flamboyant colors
Did make the city
Glow too
Clean defined
In Nature’s light

A birthday poem

Giving birth to me


I have been up for hours
In the dark of night
In candle light
Christmas light glowing at dawn
Rubbing my belly
It feels like
I have all of a sudden
Let go of 40 years of fear
An my belly hurts
Bursting free
My fingers have pierced the membrane
Of memories holding me back
And the flood of hurt
Flows out of my cells
My nerves
Raw in newness
On fire with love
For around are many other women
Beloved Friends
Holding my hand
Whispering in my ear
Hugging me
Holding me up
Calling beloved me back to me
As I rub my belly
Worshipping all it has held
All it is letting go
Wrapping myself in soft burgundy red velvet
A red coin scarf swaths my belly
It is more precious than gold
Warm love tears mingled joy and sorrow
Wash over me
Carrying healing
Bathing me in hope
I feel a tired begin to creep in around me
I want to sleep
With smiles and bubbles
Dream silly dreams of laughter
Wrapped warm
In a deep awe of love
This is how I give birth to myself

Honoring

Honoring

The body stops

Hurts aches

Wants to fall apart

Slipping into the lavender water

Warm enveloping comfort

Getting to the secret places

Of loving and grit

Here in the quiet

Letting the body float

Baptized by lavender

I hold me

I hug my arms

I explore every toe

Watch my long hair

Float as seaweed

In the currents of my body

I kiss my breasts

Run my hand down my strong legs

Caress my cancer scared belly

Pushing warm water waves

Over this roundness of life

In holding to let go

Wailing for all I hold in my soul

Salt tears mingle with glitter lit water

For the sorrow and hope

That is now a turbulent pool

In my soul

Here I find honor

Here I find honor for my story

For the fears of death

I face with all the courage I had

For the anxiety of working this alone

Here I find honor for things lost

Friendships that are no more

A way of life that died

So I could find a new way and an old way

Back to loving me

Here I find honor for those who helped

In small and big ways

For the hands held, shoulders cried on

For seeing the rebirth in the kindest words

For just being there

Here I find honor for myself

Honoring the entire experience

For learning more to love

For the courage to face my fears

For the gratitude of being alive

For being able to hold all these things

Sorrow, anger, gratitude, hope, love, joy, fear

Here I find honor for myself

For being able to hold all these things